always.

20100227

Ohai girlcrush-sama~. <3

Why are you so prettyyyyyy.

I miss you, I really do.

Inom tayo pag gumaling na akoooo. \o/

Labels: girl crush

20100226

I'm having my ECG on tuesday.

20100225

So do I ever regret that I met you? That I've fallen for you? That I told you how I felt about you? Absolutely not. (somehow) Having you (around) is the best part of my senior year.

What I regret? Not being able to tell you everything properly. I was too scared.

~

Next week is final week. I'm finishing up my compo plate to pass it tomorrow afternoon. And I have to do my ESTH hw too. Meh. I'm too tired.

I think I get why I'm getting anxiety attacks so often. A year of stress from my thesis + other things.

Di ko naman kasi talaga inaamin na nasstress na ako. Anong ginawa ko? Nilabanan ko. Gumawa ng gumawa. Nagtrabaho ng nagtrabaho at kinalimutan na ang pahinga at tulog. Magaling. Palakpakan. Kaya ito.

Meh.

I will be honest.
I break down very often. I just did a few minutes ago. Broke down. Cried and cried.

Ang hirap. Ngayon lang nagssink in yung stress ng thesis.

Mamamatay na kaya ako? Hahahaha.

So do I ever regret that I met you? That I've fallen for you? That I told you how I felt about you? Absolutely not. (somehow) Having you (around) is the best part of my senior year.

What I regret? Not being able to tell you everything properly. I was too scared.

Heart.

20100223

I thought you had better things to do. Turns out you don't. Well, go figure why I had it tattooed on my wrist, dear.

It's because I have my own life. I have my own dreams. I know exactly who I am. And you know what, I don't need people like you to tell me what I was and what I am right now. See. I'm even giving you so much credit by blogging about the likes of you. I'm already having a bit of trouble with what I'm having right now and whatever is wrong with my body. So don't you go messing around with me.

Labels: rant

20100217

Thesis defense done. <3

I have nothing else to say.

<3

Sleep, i missed you~

20100210

I need a good cry. Impending sense of doom.

20100203

Good news! My dad's back home from the hospital today. The block in his heart isn't too serious and the treatment will be via medication. No more test. :)

Bad news? I had my worst panic attack last night. My heart was beating way too fast and it was the most frightening experience. I swear, I really thought I was going to die. I lied on my back and I don't know, somehow I managed to fight it. My mom had to rush back home for me. I tried to rest early, but I didn't get to actually sleep until 6am. I had minor hits during the night too. And now, I still feel weak and I can't move much. I can't work on my thesis. I really need rest. And I hate having to hear my heart beat before I sleep. Somehow, it hits me again. Mild hits, though. But I am scarred for life. I don't want to be left alone now. I'm just too scared.

I'm going to stop drinking coffee for a while.


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