WISHLIST ♥ MORE Tattoos Tattoo machine (with power source. Custom tattoo machine SOMETHING REAL My own studio. New lens for my 50D. WORLD PEACE LOL Beats by Dr Dre ( I will forever love you if you'd give me one ♥ ) Snow Leopard upgrade ZUNE Trip to Germany + ticket to Oomph's concert. Trip to wherever Muse will play WAVEBOARD LUCK Flickr, by yours truly. dA, by yours truly. Multiply, by yours truly. Plurk, by yours truly. Nica, teh CyberHyper Buddy. Khan, teh Clone Aiwa, teh Kulit. Pabs, teh long lost friend. E.mman, teh great illustrator. Maria, teh vocalist and besfrond.
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TINATAMAD AKO.
This can't be happening. Seriously. TINATAMAD NA AKO. >_<
Hi. I'm reg. If you've known me for the past 3 years, at least, you would definitely know that I'm not THAT lazy. I'm DEFINITELY not THIS lazy. But alas, I am lazy now. I have lots due this week. There's my TXD waiting for me to finish it (I have only finished one box out of six.) And there's the VMA plate I have to do with Khan (and I told him that we'd do it on Tuesday instead of tomorrow.) Ohai thar Thesis. I almost forgot about you. You've been staring and waiting since Friday. I can not believe that I doing this to myself. Sure, I can be lazy at times. But not this lazy that I'm even blogging about it and planning to go to bed after this update. Great. Maybe because I miss my friends. Billie Jean, Aizel, Colleen, they've always been around and we always help each other out. Well, I'm always around Billie Jean and we're the helping buddies. And Oomph buddies (with Paul.) BOO. WHAT IS HAPPENING TO MEEEEEEEE. ... Gusto ko nalang manghula ng manghula. I guess I'll take a peak at my reading before I go to bed. I feel so restless about someone. Oh God. FOUR YEARS. It's been four years already. I thought I forgot about you. You and your silly self. How you made me happy. How we were like together. How we were against the world. Remember how I almost lost my best friend because she were jealous of you and because that b*tch fed her mind with silly stories that I was never going to talk to her because I had you. How we tried to gain her back. Remember how you improved that school year when we were together. Where you realized you really did love math. How you loved to show off in front of our Physics teacher, Ms. Carbonera. God. Why am I remembering everything all of the sudden. And it feels different to remember them. I guess I still do have feelings for you now. Too bad it's all too late. I don't know if I should even try to regain our friendship. You WERE my first. Boyfriend. Guy best friend. The first one I cried my heart out for. I kinda hated it when you showed up in the cards. I didn't know it was you. Bing said "may isa pa na malapit sayo na lamang sa kaputian kesa dun sa isa." And when I got home and got online, you buzzed me in my YM and asked how I was. COINCIDENCE? I do not know. But you were there. We were talking. And what, you were insisting to know if I had a boyfriend right now. If I liked someone right now. Why I don't have a boyfriend right now. Why I broke up with my ex. I guess it's just like you to ask stuff like that. I don't know. Last time I saw you, it was the battle of the bands in our high school. You watched. You went there. Why? To see me? Goodness gracious. I don't even understand why I'm trying to analyze everything now. WHY I'M EVEN LETTING YOU AND MY MEMORIES OF YOU INVADE MY BLOG. Help. Labels: depression, fail, First love never dies, lazy, tamad |